I took on an apprenticeship at 16 after failing to get into sixth form. I started working in a warehouse, at first I enjoyed the fact that I was learning things, earning money and helping the company run smoothly. Just under a year later I fininshed the "prohibition period" and was then offered a months extension twice. I felt like the company just didn't care about me, giving me probably the closest thing to being thrown out the door. I'd say that was the start of the end.
Every morning now I wake up and I hate myself for not quitting. I get to work and my 8 hour shift feels like 30. My mind just shuts down or is a million miles away and I make silly obvious mistakes all the time now. My boss is punishing me for this by saying he can't trust me to do the work correctly and I find myself doing all the worst most boring repetitive mindless jobs there. I used to just put in a earphone and some music and get back out of the state of boredom but I can't anymore due to a recently added bs health and safety rule. I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel (pay rise,promotion etc.) anymore.
College is going to be starting in about 2 months and my mum made me promise not to quit for no good reason. So, I'm here for another 2 months minimum. I need a way of coping. I'm losing my appetite, going out socially a lot less, smoking a lot more cigarettes, and worst of all I know I'm missing out on some of the best years I'm going to have. I'm only 17, I'm desperate for a healthy way of coping before it gets too late.